A little re-introduction.

Hi, I am Kerwin Ray Escape Sentillas. I'm sure you've known a little bit of me through my posts and through the tidbits I write on the right side of my blog, but I think a little re-introduction will be good at this time. I've gone out of circulation for so long that I myself have forgotten the face of my blog. I realize that this 'refreshing' of sorts is more for myself than for anyone else, to reacquaint myself with the joys of blogging, but I thank those who appreciate the make-over effort. You guys bring sunshine into my life. Wee!

I just turned 21 a few days back. I'd like to thank everyone who greeted me during that time; as everyone may know, 21 is a guy's debut, and is therefore very special. Anyone who contributed into my happiness that day by acknowledging the importance of my birthday by texting or calling or talking to me will be hereby rewarded good karma for the rest of August. Special thanks to Jel for waking me up at midnight to remind me that I'm 21. More special thanks to him for buying ice cream and donuts for the celebration. Good karma all around.

I held no party during that day, although my fellow MA's suggested a topless party or a bikini party, albeit jokingly. Jokingly, I said, so no, the topless/bikini party did not happen. What did happen is a movie celebration (Bewitched) and a luncheon at Chef d' Angelo's with the very lovely Tsikee Lu (Tsik Tsik Tsik Tsik), who I missed very much. What did happen is a dinner at Pizza Hut with a few of my blockmates, who I also missed hanging out with. As you can see, my 21st birthday is pleasant all around.

The days leading to my birthday were not so pleasant, however. More specifically, the last week leading to my birthday. During that time, I was with the Actuarial Department of PhilamLife, doing a comprehensive study. During that time, I was depressed. During that time, I cried hard every morning before going to work.

Looking back, I realize that perhaps I was too hard on myself. I felt the urge to exert more effort into the project because I was afraid that Actuarial wouldn't hire me unless I do very well. I felt myself sinking into desperation as each day passed, getting more and more nervous as the dry run and actual presentation dates approached, seeing that I wasn't done with my project just as yet. If not for Jel, who comforted me the best way he can, and Sam, who listened to me while I talked about my apprehensions, and the MA's, who unknowingly made me happy in their own little ways, I would have become catatonic by now. Perhaps it is needless to say that everything went well after that, and, yes, the Actuarial Department decided they would hire me. The issue now is whether they could hire me during the crucial time, but that's another story to be told another time.

Now, I'm in the Sales Department. At first, loneliness began to set in, primarily because all the MA's were scattered to different sectors of Metro Manila, and I was the only one who was assigned to the West Sector in UN. Not seeing those girls had its depressing effect. Fortunately, my bosses gave me interesting work to do, and there were so many places to go, so these kept my mind off the loneliness. Today, for instance, the whole West Sector Sales Management Team (as this is what our team is called), went to an Eat-All-You-Can Cabalen merienda treat for productive agents. It was both filling and enlightening. Filling, because the food was simply sumptuous. Enlightening, because I finally understood the plight of agents. Seeing them in a personal way made me realize that being an agent is not easy. I have to commend them for their guts, for their determination, and for their skill. I can't express it well enough, so I'll just say it again: Being an agent is not easy.

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Well, I think I've effectively re-introduced myself to myself (and to the readers who care, hee), so I'll stop here now. I'm enjoying blogging once again, and even though I am dead broke right now and can't pay for another hour of internet cafe time, the statement I wrote in the last entry still holds: it's going to be a blogging spree from here on out, so prepare for more. How am I going to do that without a single centavo in my name? Well, destiny has ways that man cannot fathom.

'Til next time.