Future matters.

It may seem too ambitious, but I want to clinch a job before leaving Manila on March 21. I want to make sure that I have concrete work to look forward to when I'm having my "last long vacation before retirement" in Davao. It agitates me to think that I may have to leave some kind of an unfinished business here. I want the job hunting to be done and over with. I want some peace of mind.

That said, I think this is quite unlikely. I cannot possibly fit the entire process of recruitment for all the companies I've applied to in a span of two weeks. For instance, UnionBank, which will be interviewing me this Friday, requires their applicants to undergo three interviews. If ever I pass the preliminary personality interview this Friday, I will then have to fit the next two interviews next week. That is clearly not possible because I have other exams to take (such as the PhilamLife exam tomorrow), other interviews to go to (such as the BPI interview on the 16th), and other things to prepare for (such as the graduation fitting, practice, and what-not). Clearly, I will have to sacrifice March 21 as my departure date in exchange for a bigger chance in landing a job before that "last long vacation." I don't think Papa will agree to that, though, so that's that.

I am the type of person who wants to have my plans for the future all written down and mapped out. (Peeking in my planner will reveal this.) Now, not having a job before going home is screwing up all my plans. It leaves too much of an ambiguity everywhere. For instance, although I already have a place to stay in Manila for the next three to four years or so, not having a job provides too much of a possibility of not being productive in that place for the first two months or so. And I don't want that. I want to be productive as soon as I come back from Davao. I just want to work, already, goddarnit!

All these insurance companies are not making it easier on me, either. Papa's right: "Ang hirap makahanap ng trabaho." I've called and re-called, searched through every nook and cranny of almost every relevant insurance website in the Philippines, and none of them-- not one-- has an opening for actuary or actuarial assistant. Man, I thought this job was in demand! I guess I'll have to try harder, though. It even has already occurred to me that I may have to forgo my actuarial ambitions and apply for one of the Management Training Programs these insurance companies have. It might provide me with the ticket needed to easily access the actuarial departments of the companies if ever the opportunity, i.e. vacancy, arises.

Oh God grant me a job!