Saturday, November 19, 2005

A series of unfortunate events.

A series of unfortunate events happened to me and the people around me so I haven't really had the strength nor the motivation to blog. My apologies to those who regularly anticipate my entries (magbuhat ba). I hope my explanation will suffice.

For the past few days following my three exams, I've shifted between feelings of forlornness and melancholy. At times I feel like I'm at a loss, like my spirit has detached itself from my body and went somewhere else. At other times I feel strangely aware of everything, but it's not even a blessing because the sadness just becomes more acute, becomes more in focus.

So what's pulling me apart? I don't really know. Maybe my not-so-fascinating actuarial exam? Maybe the seeming blandness of, and consequently, my disinterest in, my recent projects in the MAP? Maybe my neverending sickness? Maybe the travesty that is Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire? Maybe it's this season's Amazing Race: Family Edition? I don't really know.

Hay buhay. I wanna see my family again. I'm sure I just need a vacation.