Off.

I shouldn't be watching these types of movies again, these movies which make me feel that there's something off-- something inadequate-- about the way my life is currently going. I try to remind myself that I am perfectly content. Of course, there are still many things which I crave for, things such as a telephone line or an Internet connection, for instance, but on a deeper level, on a more profound level, I am content. There is nothing more I can ask for. But then this movie comes along and tells me-- albeit implicitly-- that there is something wrong here. Something is not right about this picture. I do not like to be reminded about this. I do not like to be told that something's amiss. It just... it just makes me feel sad.

Dammit, this is really affecting me now. I never thought it would affect me this way.