I should be ecstatic but...

...I'm not.

Sales presentation went very well yesterday. VERY, VERY WELL. I couldn't emphasize it quite strongly enough. Even though I personally felt that my project didn't quite live up to my own expectations (yeah, perfectionist), it seemed to match the sales executives', so I guess there's no "negative mismatch" there. But really, I'm glad they liked it. The sleepless Wednesday and the stressful Thursday and the crazy Friday were all worth it, I guess.

But why don't I feel ecstatic? Why don't I feel relaxed? Why don't I feel the urge to grab my LOMA books and actuarial notes to prepare for my 3 exams this November?

I hate this feeling. I haven't experienced it since November of last year, and that time definitely sucked. If ever something does come out of this, I'm sure it will be something bad, and something catastrophic. Please God, let it not be so.

Let it not be so.